2006-06-25
Sunday, July 25, 2006
I'm not doing anything progressive today at all. I can't even sleep for gawd's sake.
Adam told me not to waste my time mourning on Jake, and that I'm only wasting my time when I should realize I'm young and I should have fun.
I can't have fun. I'm supposed to call four of my friends back to hang out. I want to cop-out. I want to sulk. I don't even want to play my guitar. I don't want to skateboard. I can't even sleep. I only slept a half an hour last night. Even with taking my sleep medication around noon today, I was only able to fall asleep for an hour and a half.
I want to spend the day pretending I don't exist. Tomorrow I'll have fun.
I want to miss him today.
Thank you for the comment you left me Kate, Adam told me something similar last night. Jake was obviously not over his ex-girlfriend when we started dating--for whatever reason it was. I should have never tolerated treatment like that.
He left twenty messages on my phone this morning. He says I'm being stupid. He just doesn't get it.
drmingawake at 6:03 p.m.